Travel there,travel here!!

Hello and Assalamualaikum guys!

This morning,I managed to not continue sleeping in yay! Cmon,that's a big achievement on this extra one day-holiday given by our PM. It's very calming and cosy and coldddd.Last night,it was raining so the morning is just purrrfect.

Okay,so just now I was reading Asma Nasa's blog who is a fashion designer (she produces such BEAUTIFULLLLL DRESSESSSS,I'm so gonna purchase them when I have money later) who is also Vivy Yusof's bestfriend.I knew Vivy Yusof first then that's when I started to know her,Asma Nasa   (i mean,online). She posted about her trip to I'm not sure where but what matters more is the pictures! OMG,I REALLY WANT TO GO THERE AND JUST TRAVEL LIKE HER! If you follow her on Instagram, you would see her pictures are mostly overseas. I'm not envy,I just wish that one day I could be like that as well.

It's so fun to always be on the air and just go to sudden trips.I actually don't mind whether it's local or overseas.In fact,I would love to explore Malaysia first before I go to overseas because gosh guys,I swear to you, if you ever say Malaysia is boring and Malaysia has nothing like the overseas have,nop guys! You're wronggg,there's so many amazing things in Malaysia that people actually rarely go. We always go to the attractions but actually if we explore more,there are so much more than just the attractions that we see on the Internet especially if you're a nature lover. Forests in Malaysia,so far, Alhamdulillah,are still taken care.There are reserved forests and all and I hope it would stay like that even in the future as we see now,all the jungles are slowly disappearing tu fulfill humans' needs, constructions,papers,places. It's love-hate relationships. You need to develop in order to get your country stand tall but at the same time,you need to destroy the nature.It needs to be controlled basically, nothing can ever go over the limits or else it will affect in the way someday,somehow.

I also really want to try this!! - just go to sudden trips,by sudden I mean we just hit up each other and "let's go to Sabah!" and just buy the plane ticket and bring only phone and camera and sunnies.  That's it! All the clothes,I buy there only. Obviously,you're gonna need lots of bucks in order to do that. You don't want to wear the same outfit and the same underwears for 5 days straight erk..

Anati and I also always talk about travelling here and there.We've been planning to go travel together to Europe since we were in Form One! We even planned a budget for our trip man. We planned to save since 2013 so by 2017,we would have the money ready already for our trip.RM1 a day multiple 360,we would get RM360 per year. RM360 multiple 1800 days (5 years),hah! We could get RM648K!!! But..budget is just left as budget. It didn't happen,obviously. We spent too much on food and Uber. I really need to work after I finish SPM!

Or I might as well find myself a rich guy....

It's hard being an adult

Hello and Assalamualaikum guys!!!

It's been such a long time since I last wrote here.It is so hectic and busy and chaotic especially the SPM is just around the corner and currently,I'm actually having trials going on but I don't know why, I love to write during exams. It's just the mood chooses to come during exams so yeah. Plus.I'm also on public holiday so why don't we just put all the books aside and let the fingers run through keyboard :) (after hours of not revising anything) 

Okay,so just now I was doing some facial,hair up in a bun,cleaning my face,putting on masks,spraying toner,using moisturizer,splash some water on the face and just lazying around on the bed while watching YouTube videos. Life is good,isn't it? (p/s: My trial hasn't finished yet guys).I watched Zoe's Q&A video and there's a person asked her,if she ever went to uni,what course she would be taking and it made me think. I've been thinking about this for so many times and pondering over it. What course should I take? What subject should I pursue? What do I wanna be? What work am I gonna do when I grow up? Am I actually good enough in this field? Do I really love this or I wanna do this because I'm influenced by all the Kdramas I'm watching?

So,all those question keep playing in my mind.I'm a lost teen,man. I don't know what I wanna do. If you ask me now,I won't have an answer to that because I'm absolutely lost on what I wanna do. I don't have much time anymore because I just applied for matriks and after this,I'm pretty sure the teachers would ask us to apply for universities. Yet,I still don't have anything specific in mind. And,I know this is not a good thing.I mean,you gotta be specific on what you want.

When I was little,I used to have so many dreams. A TV host,a doctor,a teacher,a lawyer,an engineer, you mention it all,I've dreamt it but as I grow up,I tend to follow the flow. I just live the life. It's not that I live the life aimlessly but I live for the day. I'm always like "ahh that's okay,I still have lots of time to think about this" and boom! I'm in Form 5 and I'm already doing my trials.I feel like I'm okay with most of the subjects I take (I'm taking Science stream btw) but I'm not sure whether I should be pursuing Science or not.Like,am I really interested in Science or is it just because I took Science stream in high school? Or should I try something else other than Science like law? or maybe literature? I mean,I used to feel like being a lawyer but my heart isn't really cornered there at the moment. I feel like I'm okay in most of the fields but it's just "okay". It's not like I have passion in it or I really love the field.I can do it but yeah,that's just it.

I always hear people say that we should do what we love,what we like,what we're really passionate in but I don't even know what I like. I like many things which makes it even harder than not liking anything at all because you have so many choices and you're scared you're gonna regret if you don't take that course and stuff like that.

Being an adult is hard,man. 

But,I also don't wish to become a child again. I mean,I'm a step closer to drive a carrrr. Cmon,who wouldn't want a driving license?

How do you guys handle this? 

It's been a while

Hello and Assalamualaikum!! 

It's been a while since I last wrote anything here.It was last year,I guess? OMG That's such a long time ago! I did this every single time I made a blog.I created,I wrote a lot then I stopped.Which normally ended with me deleting the blog and creating a new one after that LOL.

First of all,happy Ramadan to all muslims in the whole world.I wish you the best Ramadan and may Allah bless your Ramadan.Let's together make good deeds.No excuse la since all devils are tied.

"In Ramadan,our true nature exposes but it's also the month we cleanse our soul"

Do you guys still remember when I planned to update post everyday during Ramadan last year but also stopped halfway? I find it super fun when I see my favourite youtubers doing vlogmas so I thought,why not us muslim do Ramadan blogposts.You know,we can use it to reflect on ourselves and see what we can improve and whatnot.

I miss writing omg.I didn't realise this until I start writing again.This year has been a roller coaster.So many ups and downs and now we're already in half of the year,the first of June!! It's actually harder when you write it.Writing this makes me rewind everything that has happened this year which makes me having mixed feelings.I feel happy,sad,uneasy,overwhelmed,heavy and many other emotions mixed altogether.

I'm super busy this year I didn't have time to think about this little space of mine.I also rarely spent my time with my friends these days but now I'm starting to slow down on my prefects' work and and spend more time on myself with my family and friends. I'm currently liking this lifestyle but I also miss my busy life where I didn't even have time to have my recess,to have my lunch and my days were just filled with meetings and see her see him.Also,that's one way for me to keep fit lol because I'm such an eater. When I'm not busy,all I think about are "what does my mom cook today?" "when is the class ending??? I wanna have my recess" "Oh I still got some money.Hmmm I feel like eating sausages" "Let's go to McD"

So,when my time is fully occupied,I don't even have time to think about food.

You probably thought I was some kind of businesswoman or what but the reality is,I'm just a 17 years old girl who is busy with her school life LOL.

How did I end up writing here?

I was searching up for a movie to keep me awake because it's public holiday and it's Ramadan so a very perfect time to sleep in allldayyy errdayyy but I've slept in five days in a row and I don't want to get headache again today.You know,the pain you feel around your eyes when you oversleep.Yeah,that one,I don't like it.Also,sleeping in makes me a lot more exhausted than when I don't sleep.Once in a while,it's okay but if it's everyday,I cannot handle it.

So back to the story,I was searching up for a movie and thennn,Baba Zhou popped up in my mind and I thought."hmm why not we write a post?" so that explains why I'm here and it feels good to be back.It's as if I'm back to my old 16 years old life.Nothing much happened in 2016 but it was a great year.

I also want to rant huhu I lost my pencil box!!! I'm someone who studies with lots of pens because I like it when my reference books are filled with scribbles and lines and highlights.It makes me feel like a genius (who else is like this? HAHA) and I planned to polish up on my addmaths but my calculator was in my pencil box :') I need to buy a new one.I don't really care about the pens and highlighters but what I care is my calculator! It's priceless! There's this assurance feeling when I have my calculator like I can do everything with it.Yeah.

Talking about calculator makes me uneasy thinking about my trial is just around the corner so I should stop here.See you in next post (which I don't promise will be in this year LOL).Hope you enjoy this! Byeeee!